I can't be bothered

To start this off with a reasonable statement, I am an asshole! I enjoy that fact, in fact I bathe in the glory that is that fact. Apparently, I also like to type the word fact, and that my friends, seems to be a fact. Anywhoo (Is there a more gay word?), I am the laziest guy in the world. I like nothing more than to just chill out after a hard day at work of doing a few menial tasks and perusing the Internet. Sure, there are times that I'm literally killing myself, and others where I have down time to do some slacking off. Over the course of the last five years, I've been losing little pieces of business and while the initial shock is traumatizing, the overall result is the fact that I will end up with less paperwork to do and the lives of my underlings will be that much easier. The end result of their lives being easier, is that my work life should be easier. So sure, the revenue decreases by whatever it does, but life gets simpler. So far, my personal income hasn't been grossly affected, though it has decreased some. None of these losses are due to the fact that I suck at what I do, but rather a regional trend in my specific industry. In fact, there are about 35 small distribution businesses that are similar to mine. We are geographically the largest one out there, and always in the top 5 as far as performance goes. We are also as automated as possible and THE place where representatives go for suggestions and troubleshooting. That being said, it isn't performance related losses, but rather consolidations to save a buck. Service doesn't seem to be a driving factor any longer. There are also lifestyle and technological factors that will drive the need for my business down. The bottom line is that the writing is on the wall, and I should be actively pursuing a career change, but I can't be bothered.

As many of you know, we just installed a pool and am building a deck. At times, this really pisses me off. Why? Because pools need maintenance and frankly, I can't be bothered. Decks need preparation, purchasing and actual building, and again, I can't be bothered. We're going to an amusement park today to celebrate our 15th anniversary, and while I'm excited about one on one time with the wife, I'm dreading part of it. Mostly the walking and standing in line part. Why? Once again, I can't be bothered.

It seems to be a growing trend with me, I frankly just can't seem to be bothered lately and it wasn't always this way. When I was younger, I was hungry. Now I lack enthusiasm for most things that require effort. Is it the fact that back then, I was working to to have some financial freedom and now that we're doing better I don't feel the need to? Yeah probably, but I think there has to be some underlying factor. Or perhaps not, as it seems to be a growing trend. Walk into a convenience store and try to purchase a beverage while Apoo is on the phone. He could greet you, engage in some small talk and make you feel like you are a welcome customer. Instead, he talks on his cell phone, while giving you dirty looks for even being there. I guess he can't be bothered either. The list goes on and on and up the ladder to the highest of high positions. Every where you turn, you hear You have to have this department take care of that not mine. Why? Because they can't fucking be bothered. The line "It's not my job" is a just another way of saying I can't be bothered. That lack of enthusiasm is what drove me out of the corporate sector and into self-employment. Lack of enthusiasm could also be what drove intelligence officials to overlook an August 2001 memo citing a terrorist attack that resulted in 9/11, though that is merely hearsay. My problem is now, I share that lack of enthusiasm with everyone else. Congratulations BUZZ, You're an American!